This song was very important for me to write because it describes the seasons of
my life as a Christian, my struggles, the point at which I hit "rock bottom,"
and the decision I made to get up and start over again. The words are very
personal and it's a very emotional song for me to sing. It's also very humbling,
and it makes me feel completely transparent. My journey from fall, to winter, to
spring, and finally to summer was often met with difficulty and strife. But God
never turned away from me...even when I turned away from Him. Little did I know
that my journey would eventually bring me back to fall...however, this time, on
my knees at the feet of my Savior, praising His name for the miracle that He has
perfomed in my life. His undying love, mercy, and precious grace has been so
richly poured out upon me. I'm so grateful, and yet so undeserving! Thank you,
Jesus, for loving me and calling me Your child.
(Fall)
The air is changing as the colors turn to gray
My heart is dying as all my hope just fades away.
I can't hold on any longer as temptation covers me,
I know the truth is there, but I refuse to see.
This is my fall.
(Winter)
Endless separation. So dark and frozen.
A bitter wind bites at my soul. I wander all alone.
I barely recognize this thing that I've become.
I am so lost, broken and dying.
I close my eyes, and with my last breath, "Father, forgive."
(Spring)
"I am awake. I choose to live. I willing surrender all to Him.
I'm born again, alive again, dead to my sin. Cleanse me, oh God."
(Summer)
The Son shines brighter now.
I'm more alive somehow.
You have restored in me a will to be
Exactly who I'm made to be.
Now I am free, worshipping the King of all Eternity
My Lord, I've come home.
The Fall returns, but now I'm falling to my knees in adoration, and singing
holy, holy, holy, holy, holy, holy Lord!
